You've got to know this. You've got to start having confidence in yourself.
I know whenever you look into her eyes, you feel small.
You feel inferior.
But somehow, you can't seem to look away.
It's like a small little boy oogling an ice cream cone from afar, him knowing he can never have it but dream so much of gaining it.
I know you think you've got nothing to offer, no looks, no talents, not even the basic average height.
You stammer in front of her.
You drop your popcorn all over the seat.
You have no idea what you're going to say next.
She talks about your past and what you've done.
You regret for a moment, but regret no longer.
For you know for sure, you've grown from it.
You've changed from it.
She might say all the negative points about herself, but truth is, you don't mind.
You know human beings are never perfect.
You know everyone has flaws.
And you know you accept her flaws.
All you're asking for is a chance to woo, not even to get get into a relationship.
But a chance to woo.
You see through her iron body and realise she's like toufu.
Sturdy on the outside but soft on the inside.
Afraid she is of another heartbreak.
You know how tough it'd be.
To appease her.
It's like David against Goliath.
But you remain faithful.
And I believe that faithfulness, reaps good harvest.
Whether tangible, or intangible.
This is all I have to say.
Peace and love,
That was 16th Feb 2010, nearly 6 months ago.
How I missed the faithfulness.
How I missed her.
Funny how things can change at such a drastic pace.
She said I meant a lot to her.
But truth is, sometimes people need more than just words.
This is the first time I'm going to pray for something.
For God to help me let go.
It just feels so hurtful knowing you've been living a lie.
Despite all of that, I still miss you.
And I hope you'll be happy with him (I know he's so much better than me).
Though I know you'll never see this, goodbye.
And if God permits, we'll meet again some day.
Mayday Parade - Miserable At Best
Peace & love,