God-sent.

I believe this perspective was given to me by God.
"Life is like a guitar".

The tune is awesome and beautiful when played.
But as time passes by,
the strings may get out of tune and the tune starts to get annoying.

It is now up to us to tune those strings back to the way it was.
If we remain stagnant,
the tune would never change.

Only then we can truly appreciate the beauty and melody of life.

While we're on this small boat,
we might as well enjoy it while we're in it.
You'll never know,
someday someone may drag us back to safe shores.
(:



Peace and love,
Lewis

Take Me Away.

Trials.
What we are all going through right now.
I keep telling them to cheer up.
I keep giving them advices.
I keep telling them not to run away.
I keep telling them that things will get better.
I keep telling them that things could've been worse.
I keep telling them to be happy.
But sadly,
I can't get these into my head myself.

Instead I'm here.
Broken.
Suffocating.
Silent.
Afraid.

I've experienced it all.
I've gone through it all.
But this time it's different.
I don't know why.
But it's different.

Just take me away.
I've got nothing left to say.


Peace and love,
Lewis

When Shit Hits The Building.

People say I'm a good and nice guy.
However, I might have to disagree with that statement.
Because doesn't anyone who does good receives back good things?
In my case, not.
One week of happiness was all I was given.
Before shit hits at me again.
Indeed, when you thought you have the answer,
someone would just change the question.
Everything involved with me will just come to a complete halt.
I have nothing to offer and nothing compared to the rest.

I get the message, I'm backing off.

Take me away.
I've got nothing left to say.


Peace and love,
Lewis

Love Wins.

Person A: "What do you describe life as?"

Person B: "It is like a tension of the opposites."

Person A: "Explain?"

Person B: "Life is like a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted."

Person B: "A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere stuck in the middle."

Person A: "Sounds like a wrestling match."

Person B: "Yes, I suppose you can describe it that way."

Person A: "So which side wins?"

Person B: "Which side wins?"

Person B: "...Love wins. Love always wins."


Peace and love,
Lewis

The Greatest Enemy Is The Guy In The Mirror.

Like the caterpillar, one needs to wait in order to turn into something beautiful.

'The greatest enemy is the guy in the mirror'.

I heard this quote by Mr Teng during training one day and immediately fell in love with it.

I guess it's perhaps because it totally refers to me.
I just want to say that without the support of guys like Benjamin, Dudley, Jason and Anthony, I would've locked myself up in the room and cried myself to death.

Anyway, it's through consoling these guys that really consoled myself.

Indeed the phrase goes,

"The greatest optimist is his own greatest pessimist."
How true that goes.

I just to leave today with this to tell everyone.

Defeat the enemy and not let the enemy defeat you.

Do not keep telling yourself you're not good enough for anything.

Because the fact that there are no two same DNAs' in the whole world already tells you that you're unique and special in your own way.

Everyone has their own talents whether they like it or not.

It is through these talents that one really sees their potential;

these talents are given by God for you to utilise.

So don't give any bullshit that you're not good enough for anything or anybody.

Because as long as you're not ashamed of yourself,

no one will be ashamed of you.

As long as you work hard,

no one will deny you.

Mistakes are inevitable;

one mistake does not determine one's future.

So get straight up from your fall,

and you'll probably save your own ass from being run over.

Peace and love,

Lewis

As The Song Goes.

Linkin Park - In The End

One thing, I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme

To explain in due time

All I know, time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal, didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on but didn’t even know
Wasted it all just to watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when


I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter


One thing, I don’t know why
Doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how I tried so hard
Despite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so far
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me in the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when

I tried so hard

And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There’s only one thing you should know

I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There’s only one thing you should know

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter


Peace and love,
Lewis

There's Really No Way To Reach Me.

Like the tree, I'm withering day by day.

You know how when you're in so much pain that you would just sprout out vulgarities?
That's what I've been doing every single day inside of me.
It's not me being emo,
it's about me coming back to reality.
People say when you wake up in the morning,
smile in front of your mirror and that smile will follow you throughout the day.
I tried and it succeeded initially.
But I only realised that those were fake smiles I was giving.

Indeed,
everyday just gets worser from the previous.
I'm just stuck falling in this bottomless pit.

There's really no way to reach me.


Peace and love,
Lewis

When You're Down, You're Down and Out.

It's a cold world out there.

"When you're down, you're down and out."
This is a phrase I often hear in football matches but never really believed in it.
Only till now.
I came to terms that when bad things happen to you,
bad things would just follow.
And when good things happen to you,
bad things would also follow.

Take last week's case scenario for example:
I bought my tunit boots and was rejoicing.
I kicked the first ball and the feeling was magnificent.
I thought I had it all then.
Only for me to lose one stud that day.
That incident taught me something.
That when you think you have all the answers,
someone would change the question.

It's not about losing the stud,
it's about how bad things can turn in a split second.

Take yesterday's case scenario for example as well:
I was ecstatic when I found out I grew by 2cm.
Though I am still short,
that height increase brought me hope.
I was hyper throughout the whole day.
Until at night when I realised I suddenly had rashes.
Don't worry,
it's not contagious.
Anyway,
I've been burdening my parents so much these few months and this just burdened them more.
I may be alergic to sweat, grass or fabric.
Or I may just have an unnatural reaction.
The first one is the worse and I would not accept it.

I've recently been having thoughts in my mind that I wish I can shrug off but it just keeps coming back.
Even though I liked the thought very much,
I know it's wrong and I know I can't do anything about it.

Life just keeps getting dimmer and dimmer by the moment.
I need a Saviour.
Please.


Peace and love,
Lewis