Friday, July 17, 2009

Love & have no regrets.

"For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace."
- Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

She was the only creature in the house who truly understood me.
She was there when I was down.
She was there when I needed someone to listen.
And somehow, she always made things feel better.

She had that look in her eyes.
The kind of look that was genuine.
The kind of look that showed she was listening.
And after I spoke, she would always kiss me.
Be it on my feet or in my palms, she always does.

The love I showed was inconsistent, but the love she showed was always there.
When we were sleeping in the comfort of our beds during a rainy night, she would be alone in her cage fighting off the cold wind.
Sometimes, she had to fight off the stray cats who climb over our walls and try to sneak into the house.

Getting to roam around the house was a luxury to her, cause her hair falls off easily.
But whenever she does, she would run up to anyone and kiss that person and lie on the floor afterward, hoping for a rub in her tummy.

I tried to redeem myself to her during her last few days.
But it wasn't enough.
Nothing was enough.
She breathed her last breath while I was sleeping in my bed.

I miss her.
And I love her.

Rest in peace my dear.

The first and last picture of Princess: 2000-2009

Puff Daddy - I'll Be Missing You


Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show
I laced the track and you locked the flow
So far from hanging on the block for dough
Notorious they got to know that life ain't always what it seems to be
Words can't express what you mean to me
Even though you're gone, we still a team
Through your family I'll fulfil dreams

In the future can't wait to see if you open up the gates for me
Reminisce sometime the night they took my friend
Try to black it out but it plays again
When it's real, feelin's hard to conceal
Can't imagine all the pain I feel
Give anything to hear half your breath,
I know your still livin' your live after death

Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day, Every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinking of the day
When you went away
What a life to take
What a bond to break
I'll be missing you

Its kinda hard with you not around
I know you're in Heaven smiling down
Watchin' us while we pray for you
Everyday we pray for you
Till the day we meet again
In my heart is were I keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need to proceed
Strength I need to believe

My thoughts Big, I just can't define
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Us and a six, shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me take in flicks
Make a hit, stages they receive you on
Still can't believe you're gone
Give anything to hear half your breath
I know you're still livin' your life after death

Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day, Every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinking of the day
When you went away
What a life to take
What a bond to break
I'll be missing you

Somebody tell me why
On that morning, when this life is over
I know
I'll see your face
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move i make
Every single day
I miss you

Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day, Every time I pray
I'll be missing you

Thinking of the day
When you went away
What a life to take
What a bond to break
I'll be missing you

Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day, Every time I pray
I'll be missing you

Thinking of the day
When you went away
What a life to take
What a bond to break
I'll be missing you

Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day, Every time I pray
I'll be missing you

Thinking of the day
When you went away...(fade)



And I regret not loving you more,
Peace and love,
Lewis