Miracle.

Vertical Horizon - Miracle


Its taken much too long
to get it right
Would it be so wrong
to maybe find someone
A miracle

And all you really need
is everything you could never be
And so you'd give it all
for a miracle

Chorus:
Is there a trace
inside her face
of a lonely miracle?
And so you wait
and lie awake
for a lonely miracle

You never really know
what it is --
not until it goes
And if it comes again
it's a miracle

But what you miss is love
and everything below and up above
And could she bring it all --
a miracle?

Chorus (1x)

All you wanted was a
All you needed was a miracle
A miracle
And all you wanted was a
All you needed was a miracle
A miracle

Its taken so long
to get it right
Could it be so wrong
to maybe find someone
A miracle

Chorus (2x)

A miracle
A miracle


I've been letting everything in my life down for as long as I remember.
The people I wish not to ever let down , I let down.
Given chances, let it go to waste.
I'm failing in every area of my life.
Be it studies, be it relationships, be it soccer.
I'm tired of all these letting downs.
I want to be somebody and not just somebody who could be replaced so easily.
I'm closing to my birthday and it just reminds me of all the disappointments.

I'm wearing the SRJC badge, but I've been playing for my own pride.
It's time to humble myself.
It's time to step up.
It's time to be composed.
It's time to shine.

I need a miracle.
I'm counting on You.
I need to hear from You.
I need to experience You again.
Help me hear You won't You?

I need a miracle.
Please.

I dreamt of you 4 times last night and whenever I did, I would just wake up.
Hoping that you're there.
I know it's wrong, but I can't help it.
I just can't shake you off my head.
Why does it always have to be like that?


Peace and love,
Lewis

Having so much to say, and watching you walk away.

Rascal Flatts - What Hurts The Most


I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do


As I listened to this song, I began to realise that leaving things unspoken can really hurt alot.
There was so much I wish I could've told her last year but didn't.
In the end, she left.
Not saying that had I said something she would've stayed, but at least I wouldn't be feeling the effects up till now.
Ah well, at least she's happier with him.

Moving on is so darn difficult.
Considering the fact that the scenario keeps repeating in my head.
I need a panadol for this long-termed condition.
Panadol come panadol.

Oh ya, Keith blurted out the words "...you'll never make it in life." to me.
Although it wasn't intentional, I kept thinking about it.
And I see the truth in those six words.
How painful it felt.

Will history repeat itself?
Hopefully no.


Peace and love,
Lewis

Run away, run away like a prodigal.

OneRupublic - Prodigal (Pride and Prejudice 2005)


We say good-bye
I turn my back
Run away, run away
So predictable
Not far from here
You see me crack
Like a bone, like a bone
I'm so breakable

And I take everything from you
But you'll take anything
Won't you?

Run away, run away
Like a prodigal
Don't you wait for me
Don't you wait for me
So ashamed, so ashamed
But I need you so
And you wait for me
And you wait for me

I'm on the road
To who knows where?
Look ahead, not behind
I keep saying
There's no place to go
Where you're not there
On your rope, I hold tight
But it's freeing

And I take everything from you
But you'll take anything
Won't you?

Run away, run away
Like a prodigal
Don't you wait for me
Don't you wait for me
So ashamed, so ashamed
But I need you so
And you wait for me
And you wait for me

Everybody wants to be right
But only if it's not day light?
I keep trying to find my way back
My way back

Run away, run away
Like a prodigal
Don't you wait for me
Don't you wait for me
So ashamed, so ashamed
But I need you so
And you wait for me
And you wait for me

Runaway
Runaway
Runaway
From you
From you
From you


Peace and love,
Lewis

Maybe I'm just dreaming out loud, but until then, come home...

OneRepublic - Come Home


[Verse 1]
Hello world
Hope you're listening
Forgive me if I'm young
For speaking out of turn
There's someone I've been missing
I think that they could be
The better half of me
They're in their own place trying to make it right
But I'm tired of justifying
So i say you'll..

[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I've been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I've ever known
So come home
Oooh

[Verse 2]
I get lost in the beauty
Of everything i see
The world ain't as half as bad
As they paint it to be
If all the sons
If all the daughters
Stopped to take it in
Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin
It might start now..Yeahh
Well maybe I'm just dreaming out loud
Until then

[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I've been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I've ever known
Ever known
So come home
Oooh

[Interlude]
Everything i can't be
Is everything you should be
And that's why i need you here
Everything i can't be
Is everything you should be
And that's why i need you here
So hear this now

[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I've been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I've ever known
Ever known
So come home
Come home


So today wasn't a good day.
Being unappreciated,
Being blamed,
Being weak.
Thank God I survived the day.

Tomorrow's Valentine's Day.
Which made me reminisce on my past Valentine's Days.
Often filled with heartbreaks and disappointment.
And I realise a trend.
That I am always the only one giving the present to the person.
Neither have I once received a true Valentine's Day present nor gone on a Valentine's Day date.
I'm sick and tired of seeking.
Nothing good ever come out.

If only, whoever you are can come home to me.
I don't know who you might be,
But please come home.

Happy Valentine's Day people.
Enjoy it.


Peace and love,
Lewis

Reality of inferiority.

There's a particular habit I have, which is imagining things.
Imagining the best case scenario of events only to realise, that they'll never come true.
Not only am I doing to my friends, I'm concurrently doing it to myself.
Often times I would picture myself as a handsome guy with an average height being able to confidently go up to someone and that person would notice me.
But never the case.
I would realise soon after, that it's not going to happen, and never will.

Truth is, I tried my best to love myself.
I really did.
And there will a period of time when I would.
But then soon after, I would get back to reality and feeling inferior again.

I love my friends.
Because often times, they would compliment me on things.
But I would feel good one moment, and awful the next.
Because the truth of the matter is, I am short.
There are times when I look at my friends and see just how awesome they look, not that I'm gay or anything, but I just feel so...envious.

And I hate it when girls say "height doesn't matter".
Because they're saying that just to console me when they do know that humanly speaking, appearance does matter.
And the truth of a matter is that I am not good looking either.

So I hate imagining things, because ultimately, they wouldn't come true.
And I would just be disappointed with myself.
Like I am now.

Stark truth of reality.


Peace and love,
Lewis

Change = Pain

OneRepublic - All Fall Down


Step out the door and it feels like rain,
That's the sound (that's the sound) on your window pane.
Take to the streets but you can't ignore,
That's the sound (that's the sound) you're waiting for.

If ever your world starts crashing down,
Whenever your world starts crashing down...
Whenever your world starts crashing down...
That's when you find me.

Yeah,
God love your soul and your aching bones,
Take a breath, take a step, maybe down below.
Everyone's the same, Our fingers to our toes,
We just can't get a ride, But we're on the road.

If ever your world starts crashing down,
Whenever your world starts crashing down...
Whenever your world starts crashing down...
That's when you find me.

(Yeah)
Lost til you're found,
Swim 'til you drown,
Know that we all fall down.
Love 'til you hate,
Strong 'til you break,
Know that we all fall down.

If ever your world starts crashing down,
Whenever your world starts crashing down...
If ever your world starts crashing down,
That's when you'll find (find) me.

Lost 'til you're found,
Swim 'til you drown,
Know that we all fall down.
Love 'til you hate,
Strong 'til you break,
Know that we all fall down.

All fall down, we all fall down, all fall down....
We all fall down, all fall down, all fall down....

Lost 'til you're found,
Swim 'til you drown,
Know that we all fall down.
Love 'til you hate,
Strong 'til you break,
Know that we all fall down.


Change is such a pain.
But no pain, no gain.
I'm no longer the boy I used to be.
It's time to man up.
but along the way, I may fall again.
But know that we all fall down.

And pick ourselves up.
Just a glance of your face left me mesmerised.
Unfortunately, I'm not worthy.
Peace and love,
Lewis

Barely suviving has become my purpose.

Lifehouse - Storm


How long have I been in this storm
So over aware by the ocean's shapeless form
Water is getting hard to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see You
Everything would be alright
If I see You
This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And You will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into Your eyes
And everything will be alright
And everything will be alright

I know You didn't bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Cause I'm so used to living underneath the surface

If I could just see You
Everything would be alright
If I see You
This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And You will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into Your eyes
And everything will be alright

And I will walk on water
You will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into Your eyes
And everything will be alright

Now everything is alright
Everything's alright


I need to fix my life.
In a hurry.
I'm going to show what I'm worth.
To everyone.
Especially myself.
It's not going to be easy.
But faith will see me through.

Faith will see me through.


Peace and love,
Lewis

Fix you, fix me.

Coldplay - Fix You


When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you


I would just like to let the people out there know that despite all my sadness, I still love to help anyone in any way any time.
People may question me on trying to help others when I can't even help myself.
Well, I would answer that not everyone can help themselves.
Everyone needs anyone.
Someone who'll be there not to just give comments, but someone who'll be there to listen and walk with that person through whatever impending difficulties.

Would you rather be stuck with someone in a dark tunnel helping one another to find your way out, or you finding your way out alone while another person stands at the end of the tunnel shouting for you?

Allow me to fix you.
Then you can fix me.
Fix you, fix me.


Peace and love,
Lewis