I'll praise You in this storm.

Casting Crowns - Praise You In This Storm


I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to you
And you raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

But as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth .


I need a way out of this fall.
I'm desperate.
Nothing's turning out as I wanted it to be.
But through all of this.
I still know and acknowledge that there is a mighty God up there.
I just need to find Him.
Or He find me.
So while doing that, I'll praise Him in this storm.


Peace and love,
Lewis

Nobody wants to be the last one there.

Nickleback - Gotta Be Somebody


This time, I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life, the one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I'll be waiting for the real thing, I'll know it by the feeling
The moment when we're meeting, will play out like a scene
Straight off the silver screen
So I'll be holding my own breath, right up 'til the end
Until that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that
'Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

Tonight, out on the street, out in the moonlight
And dammit this feels too right, it's just like déjà vu
Me standing here with you
So I'll be holding my own breath, could this be the end
Is it that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that
'Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

You can't give up, looking for a diamond in the rough
You never know, when it shows up, make sure you're holding on
'Cause it could be the one, the one you're waiting on
'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me, ohhh

Nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there
Nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there


This week had been an emotional roller coaster to me.
Contrasting emotions all the way.
Missing friends who train with me.
People like Jerome, Anthony, Shawn, Andrew, Latif, Aaron, Jeremy and Wei Jie.
Somehow, the bench doesn't seem as fun as before.

Been fighting to try to impress.
Been fighting to try to excel.
Been fighting to try to be somebody.
But so far, all in vain.

My common test was crap as well due to the fact that I didn't really studied.
I'm tired of being the last one there.
Tried of being like a nobody.
People may not be able to see it, but I myself feel it.

Nationals tomorrow.
Probably won't even play a single minute.
But oh well, I'll be warming up the bench.

First-team to bench to last one picked.
What next?

I gotta be somebody.
I gotta keep fighting.
I gotta study.
I gotta chase that illusive dream.
I gotta know you.

This time, I stop to just wondering what it feels like.
And actually fight to feel it.


Peace and love,
Lewis

Just say you'll come and set me free.

Coldplay - Til' Kingdom Come


One... two...
Steal my heart and hold my tongue
I feel my time my time has come
Let me in unlock the door
I never felt this way before

And the wheels just keep on turning
The drummer begins to drum
I don't know which way I'm going
I don't know which way I've come

Hold my head inside your hands
I need someone who understands
I need someone someone who hears
For you I've waited all these years

For you I'd wait 'Til Kingdom Come
Until my day my day is done
and say you'll come and set me free
just say you'll wait you'll wait for me

In your tears and in your blood
In your fire and in your flood
I hear you laugh I heard you sing
I wouldn't change a single thing

And the wheels just keep on turning
The drummers begin to drum
I don't know which way I'm going
I don't know what I've become

For you I'd wait 'Til kingdom come
Until my days my days are done
Say you'll come and set me free
Just say you'll wait you'll wait for me

Just say you'll wait you'll wait for me
Just say you'll wait you'll wait for me




Miss Ni was right.
I've got to come out.
The real me.

Don't matter how many people make fun of me.
Don't matter how many times I'll be hurt.
Sure I'll grow weary.
Sure I may even blog it out.
But I'll be better.
A better person.
A better footballer.
A better me.

I'm arriving.


Peace and love,
Lewis

I could believe more then. I could pretend more then.

Two songs to basically sum up my birthday and my feelings during the Malacca trip.
For my birthday,

James Morrison - Once When I Was Little


I was the one, who would always jump in first
Didn't think twice to look behind
Got such a good feeling, just from playing in the dirt
Once, when I was little

We could build a rocket, fly to the moon
Leave Tuesday morning, and be back for noon
There wasn't nothing, nothing that we couldn't do
Once, when I was little umm
Once, when I was little

Yeah I could dream more then
Yeah I believed more then
That the world could only get better
Yeah I was free more then
I could pretend more then
That this life could only show me good times
Once, when I was little umm ohh lalala

There was a time when I trusted everyone
Yes I did
There was no place that I would not go oh no
Spend a day on the hillside next to the holly mo
Oh once, when I was little
Yea once, when I, I was little

Yeah I could dream more then
Yeah I believe more then
That this world could only get better
Yeah I was free more then
I could pretend more then
That this life could only show me good times
Once, when I was little

Used to feel so strong
Even when they tell me, tell me I was wrong
That I can't live in a magic world
Cause it's time for me to grow up
That I got to be like the rest of them
When I know there acting up ohh

I could believe more then yes I could
I could pretend more then
That this life could only get better
I could believe more then yes I could
I could pretend more then

That this world could only show me good times
Once, when I was little
When I was little

So here comes the next one, the next in line
Stay as young you can, for the longest time
Cause those days flew by
Like a breeze just passing through
Once, when I was little


AND
For the trip,

Lifehouse - From Where You Are


So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us world's apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you

So far away from where you are
I'm standing underneath the stars
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they'd mean everything to me

Yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here

I feel the beating of your heart
I see the shadows of your face
Just know that wherever you are
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they'd mean everything to me

Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us world's apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here


Special thanks to my soccer teammates for bringing me laughter and nearly raping me.
To Dudley, Benjamin, Anthony, Jason and Jerome for having dinner with me.
And to those who sent out messages of wishes to me.
Deeply appreciated.

So what now?


Peace and love,
Lewis

I swear it's you.

You
Your eyes.
Your smile.
Seems to just leave me stuck in the moment.

Tongue-tied.
Confused.
Whenever you're close to me.

Hopeful.
Faithful.
That's why I'm not moving.

Retarded.
Suicidal.
That's what people think.

Flawfully perfect...
But taken.
That's what I think you are.

Lucky.
Hot.
That's what I think he is.

Cliche.
Repeat.
Like the one before.

Boy.
That's who I'll just be to you.

I'm turning eighteen in Malacca.
But like every year, I'm not exactly looking forward to my birthday.
I guess it just reminds me that I just wasted eighteen years of my life.
I want very much to fix my life; to be motivated.
But I just can't seem to.
Whenever I close my eyes, it's you I see.
And at the moment, a smile and a tear will come out.
I'm stuck in the past.
Stuck in fantasies.
Stuck on you.
Yet, I'm not even in your league.

OneRepublic - Won't Stop


[Verse 1]
Uh ohh
Now i stared at you
From across the room
Until both my eyes were faded
I was in a rush
I was out of luck
Now I'm so glad that I waited
Well you were almost there
Almost mine...yeah
They say love ain't fair
But I'm doing fine...

[Chorus]
Cause i swear it's you
I swear it's you
I swear it's you that I've waited for
I swear it's you
I swear it's you
I swear it's you that my heart beats for
And it isn't gonna stop
No it just won't stop
Uh oh oh
Yeah

[Verse 2]
Now you were fine by night
But when the morning light comes
Comfortable as rain on Sunday
And I'm a lucky soul
That holds your hand so tight
Hope you hear this one day
Don't fool yourself
This is my truth

[Chorus]
I swear it's you
I swear it's you
I swear it's you that i waited for
I swear it's you
I swear it's you
I swear it's you that my heart beats for
And it ain't gonna stop
It just won't stop

[Interlude]
You take this hand
You take this heart
Steal my bones
From 1000 miles apart
Feels so cold
Felt just like its ten shades of winter
And i need the sun
Ohh yeahh
Oh oh no no yeah yeah

[Chorus]
And i swear it's you
I swear you
I swear it's you that it waited for
I swear it's you
I swear its
I swear it's you that my heart beats for
I swear it's you
I swear it's you
I swear it's you that I've waited for
I swear it's you
I swear it's you
I swear it's you that my heart beats for
And it ain't gonna stop
It just won't stop
Heyy yeahh
It just won't stop
No no no no woahh yeah
I swear it's you
I swear it's you
Ohh yeah


If only...

Peace and love,
Lewis

Fighter.

Peace and love,
Lewis