Emptiness fills the void in my heart.

Professor: "Part of the problem, is that everyone is on such a hurry. People haven't found meaning in their lives, so they're running all the time looking for it. They think the next car, the next house, the next job. Then they find those things are empty, too, and they keep running."

Student: "And once you start running, it's hard to slow yourself down."

Professor: "Not so hard,"

Professor: "Do you know what I do when someone wants to get ahead of me in traffic?"

Professor: "I would raise my hand, as if I was going to make a negative gesture, and then I would wave and smile."

Professor: "Instead of giving them the finger, you let them go, and you smile. And you know what?"

Professor: "A lot of times they smiled back."
- The Last Lecture

Rather than speaking in words, a video shall summarise my feelings.


But she's happy, so that's all that matters.
I shall move on now.
And really move on.
It's gonna be tough, but I have no choice but to do so.

Full force A level now.
I shall busy myself to keep myself from thinking.
Do my best and leave the rest up to God.
Although, I already think I'm condemned.

P.S. H1N1, please strike me.

Noah And The Whale - Second Lover


Oh, and when will our heartbeats fall into line.
And the click-clack of our boot heels beat out the same time
Oh, and when will your hand find itself in mine?
Oh, and when will your hand find itself in mine?

And though I don't know your real name
Your real age, or your shoe size
I will leave this bedroom chair
And this keyboard behind

And I will love you in reality and dreams
And I will love you in reality and dreams

And though it kills me to know
That when we are through
You go to your real lover
Who'll put real kisses on you

Oh well, an ex is about the best that I can do
Oh well, an ex is about the best that I can do

And so this lonely, lonely hull
Has no use left for living
After finding her love
In a heart so unpermitting

And I will die and never ever hold your hand
And I will die and never ever hold your hand

But I'll kiss my lips and I'll blow it to you
It'll be the last thing that I ever do
And wherever you go and whatever you do
There's a man underground that will always love you

Oh, wherever you go and whatever you do
There's a man underground that will always love you

Wherever you go and whatever you do
There's a man underground that will always love you


And I guess this is goodbye,
Peace and love,
Lewis

"Only from afar can I stare,
At the the beautiful image beyond compare.
My heart at times end up in warfare,
Such that I contemplate if I should take the dare.

They say patience in a man is rare,
But for love I'm afraid it's something I've got to bear.
I wonder how many times my heart have to tear,
Before I find my other pair.
You can kill me for all I care,
Cause I never once thought love was fair."
- Me

I'm getting better people.
Thanks for all the concern.
Right now, I'm currently in what physicists call "metastable states".
Don't blame me, the physics lecture book is right in front of me (CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!)

Metastable states: Excited states whereby the mean life is much longer than that in spontaneous state.

What the hell?! This my friends, is another one of those useless theories that MOE want us to learn.
Anyway, last night was absolute mayhem!
In summary: Bee hoon, curry, beer, cheesdos, absolute vodka mango, raspberry, coffee, Rockband, Wimbledon tennis, beer, Raging Rabbits! (check out the videos on facebook), beer, mahjong, more Raging Rabbits!, disgusting 1/2 graveyard concocted by Chang, acoustic guitar, piano, more beer, more Rockband, Guitarhero, physical wrestling, taupoks, french fries, more beer, attempted Pukka ice cream, McDonald's ice cream, talk, Apocolypto, Whisper.

Well, back to reality and studies.
It was fun while it lasted.

P.S. Noah and the Whale rocks! And, I still do think of you.


Noah and the Whale - 2 Atoms In A Molecule


Last night, I had a dream
We were inseparably entwined
Like a piece of rope made out of two pieces of vine
Held together, holding each other
With no one else in mind
Like two atoms in a molecule
Inseparably combined

But then I woke from the dream
To realise I was alone
A tragic event, I must admit
But let's not be overblown
I'm not trying to write a love song
Just a sad, pathetic moan
And maybe I just need change
Maybe I just need a new cologne

But now I look at love
Like being stabbed in the heart
You torture each other from day to day
And then one day you part
Most of the time it's misery
But there's some joy at the start
And for that, I'd say it's worth it
Just as you play the shortest sharp on me

And if love is just a game
Then how come it's no fun?
If love is just a game
How come I've never won?
I guess maybe it's possible I might be playing it wrong
And that's why every time I roll the dice
I always come undone


And I know you'll never see this, so,
Peace and love,
Lewis

There's more to this I know.

When I think about you,
I wished you could see,
Just how beautiful you are to me.

When I think about you,
I wished you could hear,
The words I'd say to erase all your fears.

When I think about you,
I wished you could feel,
The way you wanted to just to be so real.

When I think about you,
I wished you would pardon this fool,
And hopefully one day you might think about me too.
- Me

I'm sorry folks.
All these will inevitably go down to nothing.
So why am I still doing all these?
I
Don't
Know.

P.S. I do not enjoy emo love songs people! I am an acoustic man.

Saosin - You're Not Alone


It's just like him
To wander off in the evergreen park
Slowly searching
For any sign of the ones he used to love
He says he's got nothing left to live for
(He says he's got nothing left)
And this time I think you'll know

You're not alone
There's more to this I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

She's just like him
Spoiled rotten, confused by the lies shes been fed
She's searching for no one (but herself)
Her eyes turn to green and she seems to be happy that she is hurt
And this time I think you'll know

You're not alone
There is more to this I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

You're not alone
There is more to this i know
You can make it out

(There is more to know)

We're not alone
There is more to this i know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

(So tell them)

You're not alone
There is more to this i know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

You're not alone
There is more to this i know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

You're not alone
You're not, you're not alone

And I know you'll never see these, so,
Peace and love,
Lewis

There's nothing more without you, without you here.

"I couldn't explained the beating of my heart,
The moment I saw you right from the start.
I never did thought it would last this long,
Ever since I found out that this was wrong.

I don't know why I just can't seem to move away,
Even though I know it'll hurt me more this way.
There's just something about you that keeps me coming back,
So I hope you'd cut me some slack.

I never expected anything out of this,
Knowing you're happy is already the bliss.
And if there's one thing I'd want you to know,
It'd be that I'll be here for you; my body & my soul."
- Me

Well, I tell myself let go.
And I couldn't let go.
I tell myself again, to let go.
And again, I couldn't let go.

My friends tell me to let go.
I tell them I already let go.
Then I tell them I have not.
My friends tell me again, to let go.
Again, I Tell them I already let go.
Then again, I tell them I have not.

Talk about life being compared to a roulette wheel.

This holiday, studying ratio to playing ratio, 1:3.
Drinking ratio to playing ratio, 1:2.
Screwed ratio to salvation ratio, 1 mole:1.

Boyce Avenue - Without You Here (Goo Goo Dolls Cover)


Your love's a gathered storm I chased across the sky
A moment in your arms became the reason why
And you're still the only light that fills the emptiness
The only one I need until my dying breath
And I would give you everything just to
Feel your open arms
And I'm not sure I believe anything I feel

And now, now that you're near
There's nothing more without you
Without you here

And I'm trying to believe
In things that I don't know
The turning of the world
The color of your soul
That love could kill the pain
Truth is never vain
It turns strangers into lovers
And enemies to brothers
Just say you understand
I never had this planned

And now, now that you're near
There's nothing more without you
Without you here
Without you here
There's nothing more without you
Without you here

My head lies to my heart
And my heart it still believes
It seems the ones who love us are the ones
That we deceive
But you're changing everything
You're changing everything in me

And now, now that you're near
There's nothing more without you
Without you here

And I know you'd never see this, so,
Peace and love,
Lewis

I was waiting for an invitation. It was hard to find.

Hey girl, hey girl.
So small, yet so strong.

Hey angel, hey angel.
So kind, yet so beautiful.

Hey devil, hey devil.
So cold, yet so influencing.

Hey you, hey you.
So angelic, yet so devilish.
- Me

It's 5am and I can't sleep.
It's 5am and I'm thinking.
It's 5:01am and I still can't sleep.
It's 5:01am and I'm still thinking.
It's 5:02am and I really stil can't sleep.
It's 5:02am and I'm really still thinking.
It's 5:03am and it's still feels like 5am.

Fastball - Out Of My Head


Sometimes I feel
Like I am drunk behind the wheel
The wheel of possibility
However it may roll
Give it a spin
See if you can somehow factor in
You know there's always more than one way
To say exactly what you mean to say

Was I out of my head? Was I out of my mind?
How could I have ever been so blind?
I was waiting for an indication
It was hard to find
Don't matter what I say only what I do
I never mean to do bad things to you
So quiet but I finally woke up
If you're sad then its time you spoke up too

Was I out of my head? Was I out of my mind?
How could I have ever been so blind?
I was waiting for an indication
It was hard to find
Don't matter what I say only what I do
I never mean to do bad things to you
So quiet but I finally woke up
If you're sad then its time you spoke up too

Was I out of my head? Was I out of my mind?
How could I have ever been so blind?
I was waiting for an invitation
It was hard to find
Don't matter what I say only what I do
I never mean to do bad things to you
So quiet but I finally woke up
If you're sad
Then its time you spoke up
Too


Peace and love,
Lewis

I'm blind and waiting for you.

"Woe to those who yearn and chase.
Woe to those who run and still lack pace.

Woe to those who give and take.
Woe to those who's smiles are fake.

Woe to those who are in love.
Woe to those who kill the doves.

Woe to me.
For being attracted to thee."
- Me

"Today I begin to understand what love must be, if it exists. When we are parted, we each feel the lack of the other half of ourselves. We are incomplete like a book in two volumes of which the first has been lost. That is what I imagine love to be: incompleteness in absence."

- Edmond and Jules de Goncourt

It's just empty.
My head, my heart and my stomach.
All empty.

I miss you.

Goo Goo Dolls - Big Machine


Ecstasy is all you need,
Living in the big machine,
Now.
Oh you're so vain.
Now your world is way too fast.
Nothing's real and nothing lasts,
And I'm aware.
I'm in love but you don't care.

Turn your anger into lust,
I'm still here but you don't trust at all,
And I'll be waiting.

Heaven, sex and loneliness,
Take what's yours and leave the rest so I'll survive.
God it's good to be alive.

And I'm torn in pieces,
I'm blind and waiting for,
My heart is reeling,
I'm blind and waiting for you.

Still in love with all your sins,
Where you stop and I'll begin,
And I'll,
I'll be waiting.
Living like a house on fire,
What you fear is your desire.
It's hard to deal,
I still love the way you feel.

Now this angry little girl,
Drowning in this petty world,
And I'm,
Who you run to.
Swallow all your bitter pills,
That's what makes you beautiful.
You're all or naught,
I don't need what you ain't got.

And I'm torn in pieces,
I'm blind and waiting for,
My heart is reeling,
I'm blind and waiting for you.

I'm blind and waiting for you.
I'm blind and waiting for you,
And I can't believe it's coming true,
God it's good to be alive.
I'm still here and waiting for you,
And I can't believe it's coming true.
I'm blind and waiting for you...

Peace and love,
Lewis

"Love is a smoke made with the fume of sighs. Being purged, a fire sparkling in lovers' eyes. Being vexed, a sea nourished with lovers' tears. What is it else? A madness most discreet, a choking gall and a preserving sweet."
- William Shakespeare

I recounted the number of times I spent with you,
And although it only accounted to just three brief moments,
I missed every one of them.
Cause when I'm that close to you, I can feel that I'm alive.
Even though it was only three, those moments could last me for eternity.
I missed those times.
I miss your smile.
I miss your voice.
I miss...you.


Tal Bachman - She's So High Above Me


She's blood, flesh and bone
No tucks or silly cone
She's touch, smell, sight, taste and sound

But somehow I can't believe
That anything should happen
I know where I belong
And nothing's gonna happen

Yeah, hey

'Cause she's so high
High above me, she's so lovely
She's so high, like Cleopatra, Joan of Arc, or Aphrodite
She's so high, high above me

Dadadadada

First class a fancy free
She's high society
She's got the best of everything

What could a guy like me ever really offer?
She's perfect as she can be, why should I even bother?

'Cause she's so high
High above me, she's so lovely
She's so high, like Cleopatra, Joan of Arc, or Aphrodite
She's so high, high above me

She calls to speak to me
I freeze immediately
'Cause what she says sounds so unreal

'Cause somehow I can't believe
That anything should happen
I know where I belong
And nothing's gonna happen

'Cause she's so high
High above me, she's so lovely
She's so high, like Cleopatra, Joan of Arc, or Aphrodite
She's so high, high above me

Movie: Loser! (2000)
Young and sheltered Paul leaves his Midwestern town to attend New York University, but he is frustrated by the antipathy of his new roommates, who instantly brand him a loser and conspire to drive him from the dorm. His spirits are bolstered when he catches sight of beautiful co-ed Dora, but his efforts at courtship are stymied by her prurient interest in Professor Alcott. Paul and Dora grow closer through commiseration, however, as each grows tired of being pushed around.


Peace and love,
Lewis