Happiness.

Just what exactly is happiness?
Is happiness only there when you're with someone you have a feeling for?
Is happiness only there when you're around with your friends?
Is happiness only there when you have money?
Is happiness only there when you have that tinge of satisfaction within your soul?
Every single day,
people all around are fighting to try find this one thing called happiness.
But there's hardly anyone who can truly find it.

The dictionary defines happiness as:
A state of being happy.
But where do we find it?
How do we make it last?

I thought I found happiness when I got into a relationship two years ago.
Sure I was happy at that moment.
Messages and calls every night made me feel loved; made me feel important.
But a few months later,
it all went wrong.
Apparently love is a fragile word to say.
When you say it,
be assured that you mean it.
I thought I was assured enough to say those three words,
but it ended up being mere words and I broke off with her because I didn't truly loved her the way she loved me.
Though I may have broken off with her,
I was depressed for what I've done to her.
Where was my happiness then?
It went as quickly as it came.

I thought I found happiness when I hung out with these group of friends back in my primary school days.
I was ecstatic whenever I met those guys.
We did the funniest things you'd never imagine together and I thought I was one of them.
But what happened in the end?
I got back-stabbed by a few of them within the group calling me fat and useless; a freak,
and there I was left to fend for myself.
Where did my happiness went to?

I never thought I could find any good use for a thesaurus until when I flipped through the pages of it.
I realised an important factor in it:
Happiness = contentment.

Why can't we ever be satisfied?
Why is it that when we have something great,
we would ask for something greater?
Look around you and you'll see old folks on the streets selling packets of tissue paper for a living.
Look around you and you'll see disabled people on the streets doing whatever they can to earn a living.
Look around you and you'll see families in other countries who share just one bowl of rice per meal.
Look around you.
They're contented with what they have.
Why can't we?
Why can't we be satisfied with what the Lord has given to us?
Four movable limbs, five senses and a well-functioned body.

In retrospect,
I do admit I have dissatisfaction with my build.
I'm still finding it hard being satisfied with this height of mine.
But I'm learning.
I realised that it's time for me to grow up and stop worrying about what others may think of me.
So what if some may mistake me for a fourteen year old?
So what if some may make fun of me?
What matters is what God thinks of me.

If you guys are wondering why I've changed,
it's because of Jesus Christ.
He changed my life and He can change yours too if you give Him a chance.
From a kid who uses vulgarities in every single sentence spoken,
who uses pornography to drown his sorrows,
to a guy who's making a stand in life; believing in Jesus Christ.
Christianity is not a religion,
it is a lifestyle.
He's going to save us all just as He did before.

So how do we find happiness?
"For without Him, who can eat or find happiness?"
- Ecclesiastes 2:24

This is the everlasting happiness.