Even if it means taking the last train home.

Love feels no burden,
Thinks nothing of trouble,
Attempts what is above its strength,
Pleads no excuse of impossibility...
It is therefore able to undertake all things,
And it completes many things,
And warrants them to take effect,
Where he who does not love would faint and lie down.
Love is watchful and sleeping, slumbereth not.
Though weary, it is not tired;
Though pressed, it is not straitened;
Though alarmed, it is not confounded...

- Thomas A. Kempis -

I've decided, boy friend or no boyfriend, I'm not gonna stop.
Even if it means a broken heart, I'd be more than willing.
The only thing I want to get out of this, is to see that sweet smile on your face.
In all honesty, that's really what I want and I'd do anything to get that.
I'm not going to hope for a miracle that you're unattached, and even if you're using me, I don't care.
Health and happiness is just what I want to get.

I'm not going to whine anymore, I'm not going to be called the "emo kid" any longer.
Dudley and Jerome are right, all I've gotta be is myself.
And so I've also decided to be Lewis and not someone who tries too hard.

I realized that I'd love for the moment.
Not for the future or anything, but for the moment.
Cause there are no rules on love.
It's just love.
I shouldn't worry about what will I get out of loving, I should just love.

What is love to me?
Love is sacrificing for the benefit of others.
So, to love or to be loved.
Which one will I pick?
I'd rather love than be loved because only then is when I'll experience love.

So we'll sing without a reason,
To ever fall in love
Even if it means taking the last train home.
(:


The Lostprophets - Last Train Home


One! Two! Three!

To every broken heart in here
Love was once a part, but now it's disappeared
She told me that it's all a part of the choices that your making
Even when you think you're right
You have to give to take

But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
And I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today

But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To ever fall in love

I wonder if you're listening
Picking up on the signals
Sent back from within
Sometimes it feels like I don't really know whats going on
Time and time again it seems like everything is wrong in here

But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
And I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today

But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To ever fall in love

Well we sing if we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing if it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason to ever fall in love

But we sing
If we're going no where
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing with out a reason to never fall in love
To never fall in love again


Peace and love,
Lewis

Here Without You.

There is a story on the Greek Gods:
They were bored, so they invented human beings.
But they were still bored, so they invented love.
Then they weren't bored any longer.
So they decided to try love for themselves.
And finally, they invented laughter, so they can stand it.
- Feast of Love

It's 4.22AM in the morning and I can't sleep.
I don't know why, but I can't seem to shake these images out of my head.
Whenever I close my eyes, I see her.
At that moment, I'd open my eyes hoping that she was there.
And always, I lay there asking myself "Why?"

Why am I doing all these?
Why do I miss someone I hardly even know?
Why am I not fixing my life?

I walk around these days just being envious of my friends.
Just seeing the things going on in their lives, make me reflect about mine and how insignificant it can get.
I used to wish I was taller, good-looking, buff and smart.
So basically, I was asking for perfection.
And I never got it.
So I'd get disappointed with myself and frustrated with God.

And then I realised something.
No one can be perfect.
We all have imperfections, some more than the other.
And we're just constantly seeking for someone out there who'd see through these imperfections of ours.
God is never to blame.
Because if God hated us, He wouldn't had given such brave and strong hearts to fight this "love" that we talk about.

I told a friend the other day that the right guy would come to her someday.
She asked me when will he come.
I chuckled and said "I have no idea."
I mean, I am also waiting for the right girl.
And it's just so annoying when you assume that the person you like is the right person for you.
So you give and you give and wonder if your efforts will pay off.
But often times, it'd leave bleeding alone on the ground.
"So why are we fighting so hard for a person anyway?" she asked.
"That's love for you." I replied her.
I mean, we'll never know the true definition of love,
But to me, love is being able to sacrifice for another without the expectation of a return.

To me, love is to do anything to ensure happiness in your heart.
How I wish I can say this to you someday.

3 Doors Down - Here Without You


A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me


Peace and love,
Lewis