Mercy Found Me

I need not be upset over corrections,
God has told me.
I need not flatter my friends just to get their attention,
God has told me.
I need not be so abrupt to do something,
God has told me.
I need not do stupid things to be popular,
God has told me.
I need not be proud of anything anymore,
God has told me.
I need not worry about my outward appearance anymore,
God has told me.
I need to keep my faith and hope in God,
God has told me and reminded me.

Thanks for all those concerned friends of mine.
It's been a true blessing to know all of you.
I've made myself right before the Lord and He is as almighty as before.
Truly,
mercy has found me.

i was wrong.

i thought i could be cool,
i was wrong.
i thought i wasnt that ugly,
i was wrong.
i thought i had became Christlike,
i was wrong.
i thought my height wouldnt bother me no more,
i was wrong.
i thought i was humble,
i was wrong.
i thought i could supress all the mixed emotions in me,
i was wrong.
i thought the loneliness was gone,
i was wrong.
i thought Zi was wrong to say those things to me and nearly got angry with him,
i was wrong.
i thought the whole world revolved around me,
i was wrong.

i angered/saddened Janice on tuesday,
im so sorry Janice.
i angered Zi as well,
im so sorry Zi.
i was unable to get the whole team to training; i lack leadership,
im so sorry team.
i wrote all those non-Christlike things on the floor,
im so sorry sister Ruth and Elder Glen.
i had to leave the church girls to save my butt from the trouble of cleaning the floor,
im so sorry girls.

probably the biggest loser in the world is none other than me.
im just not strong enough.
perhaps it's all you guys' mishap to know someone like me.
believe me,
i am not what i seem to be.
wont You save me?
from myself.

Zoom.

Well, this happens to be my first post ever since my O levels ended.
Was lazy to blog but decided to do so today.
Yesterday was the much anticipated graduation high tea.
I bought my stuff in the dying minutes before monday so it wasnt that unique or good looking.
Anyway,
took a cab to school as i was going to be late.
Told the driver North Vista and he replied,
"BUONA VISTA!"
Eventually i showed him the way.
Waited for everyone to arrive and then made our way to the place to rehearse.
Rehearsed here and there until it was time to start.
I must say everyone's outfit were fantastic.
We all truly looked like "Fine Ladies and True Gentlemen".
Haha.
But the sad thing was that i realised that i was really really short.
Sad huh?
Most of the girls standing taller than me.
Despite the fact that they were wearing high heels and such,
it was really disgraceful to stand shorter than them.
Hais.
Anyway,
The ceremony started and ended in the blink of an eye.
It was really quick,
just like the time when we first stepped into the school and 'yi zhuan yan',
4 years have gone by.
Really wished that this didnt have to end to quickly.
Im not in the hurry to grow up so soon and i didnt really have the time to embrace the moment.
All that's left of memories.
Indeed 4e2 is the best class i ever had and i really have to thank God for putting me in it.
See,
i didnt do well for my Sec 2 exams and was supposed to go to 3e4 but i opted for 3e3.
Eventually,
the God placed me in 3e2 and i really made lots of good friends.
It was in 3e2 that i started to come to know Christ as well.
I just want to say this to my classmates:
Thank you for being my classmates all these couple of years,
putting up with my nonsense and if i ever hurt anyone or put a bad impression of myself in your eyes,
i just want to say that im sorry for everything and i really never meant to hurt anyone.
All i can wish for now is for the people of 4e2 and possibly North Vista to come to know the Lord as i have.
You see, He loves us, why cant we love Him back?
And last but not least, keep in touch!

These couple of years really got me closer to people like Bryan, Daryl, Dudley, Wei Kang, Guan Hua, Wei Jie, Jun Hao, Nelson, Alvin, Cheng Kai, Yeo Mei, Juvenal, Alyssa, Xiao Xian, Loo Yee, Cherlyn and many more.
*Pardon if i didnt mention your name, i still love ya*
Haha.
Anyway,
After the high tea, we tau pok'd Jia Yi and Phua and even got chased by the security guard.
What 'True Gentlemen' display right.
After that we, 4e2, went to watch a movie together.
All 29 of us.
We first went to Lido and then when there was not much movies,
i ran to Cineleisure ahead of the rest to check out the movies.
Reached there and told them the movies available.
Eventually,
everyone agreed on 'The Game Plan'.
So i bought 29 tickets with a total cost of $203!
Wow!
We were kinda late for the movie and missed the front part but all in all,
it was a great movie as we all watched it together as a class.
After the movie,
we went to eat at Burger King and then walked back to Plaza Sing to take the train home.
Along the way,
i walked in and out of the train at different stations just for fun.
Haha.
I decided not to go home and stayed over at Bryan's place.
I had to make sure the girls get home safely.
So for those who sent me messages, thank you.
For those who didnt,
thank you for making me unable to sleep due to the worrying.
Just joking.
Haha.
Stayed over at Bryan's house and i had a fun time irritating him throughout the night.
I woke up at 9am and made my way to meet Zi and Janice.
They wanted to look for jobs and we ran around the town area searching for one.
They dragged me along.
Eventually after two long days,
i am finally home.
All in all,
i just want to thank God for everything,
especially the people of 4e2.
You guys changed my life and hopefully you guys will change other lives in the future.
Thank you, all of you (:

Growing up is never easy..

"Come to me, all of you who are weary from carrying heavy loads, and I will give you rest."
- Matthew 11:28



Photographs from Dudley: http://picasaweb.google.co.uk/dartlen.linimus/GraduationHighTea07